Over the last couple years I have been very fortunate to be able to travel all over the US... I have been to Jacksonville, NYC, Boston, New Haven, been to Maine, Denver, Washington DC, Richmond Va, Cleveland, Milwaukee, Whitewater, and Chicago many times over. Everyone knows that I'm living a different life than most, nay, all of my friends and family. I can count on one hand the number of friends I have that are not married, that have no children. Most of those friends do not live here in MN any longer, they have moved to Boston, Denver, Iowa, New Haven, VA (note that these are the places I have visited in the last couple years:)
I have been told by many of my married friends how jealous they are of my life... That I can go on vacation. That I don't have any children to take care of... i can do what i want to do when I want to do it. nothing is holding me back. As much fun as I am having going to different places... visiting my friends who aren't settled down with a family... it is a lonely life. I do get to go to these places, but its only a handful of nights a year that i get to be with people that are like me. people in my situation. the rest of the time i spend at home, alone. going to parties where everyone is paired off, and i am there alone.
As much as my friends are jealous of my adventures, i am envious of their life. They have found the person they were meant to be with. They have started a family and a life of their own. Me on the other hand, I am living a life on my own, no one to share it with.
As happy as i am to go to all these places, visiting different stadiums.... I would be just as happy staying home and starting a family of my own. I just haven't been as fortunate to have found the person i am supposed to be with as early as my friends and family.
Be thankful for what you have. don't look at me and be jealous. a life alone isn't anything to be jealous of.
2 comments:
Reading this makes me sad because you sound sad! We all want what we don't have; then when we get it, we don't want it...at least after awhile! There is someone out there for everyone and I know you will find the right one when the time is right!
I'm sorry you are so sad Christy. That really sucks. You will find someone, I truly believe in fate and your time will come, when it's right. Just hang in there and love up on that little niece of yours!
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